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every man the world over, has gone thru this dilemna: another boy you once loved versus your male instinct:

http://www.tuvido.com/the-first-love/

back when I was 9 or 10 years old, during deer season, i slept  in a tent with a guy who was 24, a grad student at OSU in Stillwater, that weekend in november.  he was my only boyfriend. he made aggressive love to me, those nights, in a tent in the woods. apparently with my own father's approval, since my father chose to sleep with other boys, too.
i will never know or remember his name, but I remember the rest. i remember crying when he broke camp and went away, forever

i do not endorse, nor partake in this male-homo-bonding thingie, these days, but i don't/won't deny it, nor will i denigrate it-- it is just a part of experiencing, growing up as a male with a big dick~

i can appreciate how older men like me, now, can and should show younger boys what their sex equipment can do, and how and when those things wake up:  i just do not recommend that lifestyle as the whole, or the entirety of a man's life at all.  things will be screwed up~

does that even make sense?